I need a good fairy doing some magic on my life, coloring my days and letting me have some good time. Well, life is grey and full of work. I feel like a gerbil in a treadmill...
I'm still doing all the idiot-work on Anna's research project like typing and making phone calls. It is really terrible. My back is hurting from all the sitting in front of my computer, my eyes are sore.
I'm also working without any break for my job. It is eating me, no idea how to manage all. When I come home I use to fall on the next chair and staring holes into the air for at least a half hour, because I'm too exhausted even to prepare a coffee.
The good thing is that I know now a lot of people from all the phone calls. This is the first time I also feel homey with the people around me. If you did not grow up in a small village like Wethen you are never an insider, you stay sort of a foreigner. And I spent my entire life elsewhere apart from 11 years. I grew up in the big cities of the Ruhr-Valley, I studied in Münster, also a big town, and I spent ten years in another small town. I never knew that there are so many nice people out there. I'm a very shy person, so this gives me a little hope getting my ass out of the house and join some of their clubs. I'm already member of the history club, but I'm thinking of getting also a member of the club for saving the historical old houses. The only thing is that I'm afraid of joining the meetings, because I'm such shy. The help of all these people is really great and makes me feel blessed. Maybe these are a few good fairies!?
Another grey weekend and another two grey weeks lie ahead filled with work. At least I hope getting the typing mostly done this weekend. And I hope that winter will go by the end of this month. In March life will grow better; more warmth, more sun, and I will be back to my house improvement! I have to get all floors layed until Easter, I have to build in my new kitchen in the first story, I have to get all rooms decorated and cleaned until then. On Easter there will be a big milestone for us: We are going to leave our construction site camp and move into all our new rooms! Last week I charged the house painter with renewing the storefronts of our house and this will hopefully be done in April or May. And I charged the roofer for building in a third window on the roof for getting some more light into the attic and for repairing the roof of our garden house. Then another three rooms to renew for me until July, two living rooms and the kitchen in the upper story! And then we will have a really big house warming party! This is the prospect that keeps me going on with my work: A summer where there will be everything done (apart from the garden and the attic), where there will be time to sit in the sun or to prettify the garden, where I can be outside after two years of working around the clock in the house even when there was beautiful weather outside. I will relish the smell of warm soil, of grass and hey and a warm and soft breeze. I will enjoy the sunlight again and my skin will lose its pale color. Please, good fairy, do a little magic and let it happen!